Autobiographical Mental Health

Don’t make me tap the sign, y’all

Here is the sign: I’m living my life.I’m going through many things.I won’t always be able to communicate those things (effectively, or at all).And, I am responsible for taking care of myself. Certain interactions dysregulate me.I’m working on that, and setting boundaries. A boundary is the line between what I’m comfortable with, and what I’m not. When someone crosses a boundary, I’ll say so, close off that area, and (if needed) withdraw to regulate. This…

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Books & Lit Reflections & Philosophy

Poltergeist isn’t about ghosts — we scare ourselves silly to be less scared

My oldest (adult) child sent this message today: I’ve been watching American Horror Story and it’s actually mostly sad. Like once you get past the creepy veneer, the episodes are like: And honestly yeah those are some very American problems. And that got me thinking… Quite lot of horror is exactly that, as it turns out. And so on, and on. Case study: Poltergeist I only realized recently that the original Poltergeist is a story…

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Crushed, then expansive – 2025 was one hell of a year

I mean that in the bad way. Mostly. At least in my case, along with “bad” comes “growth”, so there’s that. 2026 will be my year of expansion, of clarity. But first, I must ceremonially kick 2025 right in the nads and wave bye-bye from the car window. Things Lost In 2025, I lost my home. (I separated from my spouse and moved out.). I lost my family unit. I lost a large amount of…

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AI translates IRL for ASD-me

I have found what is, to me, an unassailable defense of AI. Always allowing for the fact that the fuckers who make AI are soulless thieves, and that AI shouldn’t be built on the backs of everyone else’s unintentionally free labor. Anyway. AI is outstanding for this particular thing, for sure: The particular thing I’m on the autism spectrum. There are things that take me a lot of work to understand, and that’s if I…

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Dear Target, you utter chickenshit

Daer Target,  Goodbye. We’ve been together for a long, long time. Decades, in fact. But I can’t continue to accept your bad behaviors.  You took a stand and supported the LGBTQIA+ community. Then you abandoned them. (“Scaling back” to some stores, my ass. It’s a chickenshit move.) You started to support vendors who are people of color. You emphasized hiring minorities. And then, at the first sign of trouble, you lost all of your principles and…

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Together

Everything, everywhere, is made up.  I mean, there are things that for all practical purposes are real, but in terms of human existence and perception? Made up.  A lot of people have tried to get this idea across, in one way and another.  The meat ship.The river.The Ship of Theseus.The sound of one hand clapping. The White King’s dream. The Simulation.  At the moment, I’m far less interested in the truth of this, than I am in…

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